1. I open my eyes from slumber and see the sunbeams softly fill the room with light. I breathe deeply, aware that once again, I am alive, reborn and renewed by you, O Loving Creator who watched over me while I slept last night.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Let me not forget this quiet moments of gratitude and awe in your holy presence. Let me go through this day with eyes wide open, ready to be in awe of the beauty and goodness in me and around me today. Let me be in awe of what goes unnoticed, a leaf, a fallen branch, a bud waiting to flower...and by your grace, in these moments, let me feel your presence, take me by the hand. In the name of Yeshua, who calmed the storm and fed the hungry multitude. Amen.

It’s February 1, 2021. I haven’t been sharing my poetry, prayers and prose here in my blog for awhile. It has been a difficult November, December and January for me because of my husband’s hospitalizations. But I haven’t stopped writing using pen and paper. The act of writing has become a prayer. In my lowest moments, it helped to keep me afloat. Today I decided to come back to this online space and share some of what I have written in the past few months and hope it will bring some joy to you, my dear Reader.

Someone once encouraged me to find my voice. By voice I think the person meant who I am and how do I sound that is distinctively me. I didn’t really think about voice in that way. Yes, I love to talk, sing and listen to myself talk (ask my husband!). But I haven’t really spent time in self-reflection and listen more intentionally to who I am, especially as a writer. Today I gained more clarity about my voice, especially as a writer. The way I came to this recognition was in the midst of listening to a presentation of an author in the Writing For Your Life Conference. This was an online conference in November 2020. I was seated in our dining room viewing the presentation on my laptop. I had an epiphany: God has given me a joyful, “don’t-take-yourself-so-seriously,” earthy, “dance-in-the-rain person” voice, who sounds like a “faith-seeking- understanding” kind of woman-pastor academic willing to learn how to speak the languages beyond the confines of academia, exploring the many worlds that brim with wisdom and resisting the urge to be stuck in stale, overused words swarming online.

Our Good and Gracious God,

In this season of waiting, I pray that you will wait with me…

…in hope

…in peace

…with joy

and love.

I humbly pray that your holy, comforting presence keep watch with me

and my beloved who lays broken, waiting to be made whole.

Like Zechariah, may I embrace the silence of not knowing, with faith.

With Elizabeth, help me to have the courage to live through this season of waiting.

With Mary, lead me to a place in my heart that dares to sing with joy

in the midst of unanswered

questions.

In all these longings and pleas, may your Holy Spirit empower me and all I love

to be bold in claiming your gift of salvation, who came to us first as a tiny, fragile

baby, cradled in the hay of our humanity.

In the precious name of Yeshua. Emmanuel. Amen.

Prayer after the Election

November 4, 2020

Almighty and merciful God,

It is the day after the election in this country whose motto is “In God we Trust.”

Help me and every citizen in this country to step back and reflect what it means

to truly trust in You. Help us to rely on your wisdom and to depend on you for

strength and hope to get through this time of waiting. May your love conquer our fears

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and draw us closer to you, the source of all goodness and grace, and to each other.

Forgive us of our pride, our selfishness and lack of compassion especially for the weak

and vulnerable among us. Restore and heal our land, O God and raise up leaders

who are humble and willing to serve with sincerity and empathy. Help us not to look out

for our own selfish interests, instead renew our minds and hearts that we may look

beyond ourselves and see those in need, and realize that in caring for them, we are caring for

You. In the name of Jesus, who came to serve and not to be served. Amen.